This guy. It’s his day.

As hard as taking a step back from work was, it came with so many gifts. One of the gifts came quickly.

I have never been around on weekday mornings with the kids. We have always had incredible people who loved on them and got them ready for school each day. When school started back up this fall, Jon was working from home so he took over the morning routine.

And I got the privilege of witnessing it for the first time in December.

It’s been 20 years as a married pair! But it’s been this past year that has brought so much thought and reflection about our relationship as we pushed and pulled on our old beliefs, asking questions, seeking wise counsel, and solidifying what we really believe.

Nathanael asked me to perform a small surgical procedure on one of his stuffed animals, Shiny, whose fur had torn.

I have never publicly talked about our miscarriages because I did not allow myself to think or feel much about them. Even when we lost the twin to our oldest, I focused on pushing all the feelings down really deep so I could keep going, keep working, keep pushing through and move on. I framed these as factual events in my mind, nothing more. And then….

I’ve seen the posts, heard the chorus of so many lamenting this year. 2020 has become synonymous with hot messes, train wrecks, dumpster fires. But my perspective is quite different.

Ready??? 2020 has been life changing in every good way. Yep. You read it right. I am grateful for the year 2020.

Knowing gratitude is the antidote to fear, I have been intentional about focusing on gratitude and finding joy during the pandemic.  I’ll save some of the details for a future post, but wanted to tell you what is high on my gratitude/joy list right now and I want to hear what’s on yours! 

Here they are in no particular order: