Joy in the Grief

March 22, 2021

I have never publicly talked about our miscarriages because I did not allow myself to think or feel much about them.  Even when we lost the twin to our oldest, I focused on pushing all the feelings down really deep so I could keep going, keep working, keep pushing through and move on.  I framed these as factual events in my mind, nothing more. 

And then….and then I sat down to watch this absolutely raw, brilliant short film by Abigail and Shaun Bengson last night and I felt all the things I hadn’t allowed myself to feel for 13 years. 

They bravely share their story through music and I am so grateful to feel all the important and heavy and joyful feelings about life and loss right along with them.