Nathanael asked me to perform a small surgical procedure on one of his stuffed animals, Shiny, whose fur had torn.

I have never publicly talked about our miscarriages because I did not allow myself to think or feel much about them. Even when we lost the twin to our oldest, I focused on pushing all the feelings down really deep so I could keep going, keep working, keep pushing through and move on. I framed these as factual events in my mind, nothing more. And then….

I’ve seen the posts, heard the chorus of so many lamenting this year. 2020 has become synonymous with hot messes, train wrecks, dumpster fires. But my perspective is quite different.

Ready??? 2020 has been life changing in every good way. Yep. You read it right. I am grateful for the year 2020.