Riding the Waves of Grief

September 7, 2021

This past month has been filled with all sorts of emotion, but mostly grief.  This one is pretty new for me.  I felt grief when my grandmother passed, but I have bottled up everything else for many, many years.  And it seems like it’s all coming right now. 

For me, it’s not just about people that have been lost.  It’s about experiences, too.  It’s grief about the end of summer and the kids going back to school.  Grief about things that happened long ago. Grief about things that happened more recently.  And grief about all the time I lost when I was not being true to myself. 

I’m learning about it.  It’s tricky for sure.

It comes in waves. Just when I’ve ridden one and I think it’s over, another one fills the space.

I’m trying to take it day by day and embrace each wave as it comes, but it can be hard for this planning-ahead, get-all-the-stuff-done self of mine.  So I’m trying to be intentional about saying yes to the slowing-down ideas right now. 

Yes to a game outside at night with Jon.  Yes to reading a book for enjoyment. Yes to just sitting and not doing.  Yes to feeling all the feelings. 

What helps you through this process, friends?