You Can Trust Yourself

November 13, 2022

First up - the hair. I’ve always wondered about beehives and how women made them happen. It’s not high on my research priority list though. But tonight? Tonight I am pretty proud of the height I achieved with this rockin’ folded ponytail!

Second - I’ve been intentionally working to be transparent and vulnerable here. And writing helps me process. So here is an in-the-moment hard thing in case it is helpful to anyone else.

I’ve been working through something pretty scary and big for the past few years. Something I don’t have a lot of information about or answers to. And I may never get them.

My body has been trying to tell me things. And at first I didn’t listen. It felt way out-there to think that my body would communicate. But I am learning that our bodies remember and hold things. Memories. Experiences. Trauma. And I’ve been trying hard to listen closely and pay attention. And it is telling me slowly.

This past week was really hard and the weekend was even harder. And after years of thinking I was not allowed to trust myself, and then a few more years recently of slowly allowing myself to learn how to trust myself, this weekend I fully decided that I am trustworthy and can believe the things I think and remember and feel. I do not have to gaslight myself anymore just because I don’t have all the information.

So here is your reminder (or maybe the first time you are hearing it) that you can be trusted. Your feelings and intuition and memories are valid.

P.S. While I am not yet ready to share the full details on FB, I would be happy to talk offline if anyone wants to connect or know more.